check in - Jan 21

Check-in Hospital P.Mas wad nefro katil 3..

Harap2 x yh stay overnight tp tu lah.. dh sejam msk x de pon misi mari ambik darah. Huk aloh.... Comela n take the blood test. I am confident that the result is going to be at it best. So in no time papa will discharged the same day.

Copeklaaa mai ambek darah n testtttttt... Huhu... Come on, I don't want to stayyyyyyy here... I want to go home 🏠🏡🏠🏡🏠

Embrace it while it last

A memory to keep.. short but sweet. I know it was not going to last, eventually they will updated this and I am where I am today.

No regrets but it it nice to know that I was at the level at some point but due to unforeseen n unfortunate event I had to choose what's right for me n my family for the time being

bcoz I do believe in ALLAH SWT's plan for me. He was never wrong and today is the test for me and I do hope that i answered it very well and I am going to pass this test with flying colors 🌈🌈. The sun will shine for me 🌞 eventually.

 

Warded Again (10 - 12 Jan 2021)

Sabtu petang papa asked me to accompany him to the hospital the next day. He can't take it anymore he said. Days before, like every single day I asked to take him to the hospital bcoz I can see him not being well. As usual he would deny it. So, when he asked the favor, without doubt I said I will company him.

Pagi Ahad, I take emergency leave and we went to hospital. So early that the doctor was not even in. I can see him struggling and I asked the nurse and she suggested that I take my father to the emergency since the doc was not in yet. 

Masuk je situ, ambik darah and cucuk all the necessary ubat and also cucuk wayar kencing. From there doc said result tak cantik so kn refer HKB. But due to HKB dan jadi Covid-19 Hosp, tukar ke Hosp Pasir Mas. My 1st experience naik ambulance... 

2 malam jugak la papa kt situ. 1st nite my turn, 2nd was ecah. Alhamdulillah 3rd day boleh balik tu pun after papa agree to buat emergency dialisis. Due to x de fistula, kena pasang wayar near inner thigh. Sakit sangat papa oyat but what can I do...😢😢😢. Lps buat dialisis tu for 3 hrs, papa condition gets better. He was no longer experience short breath. 

Next appointment was scheduled on the 23rd. Harap2 result darah papa ok so far boleh balik dlu.. in SHAA ALLAH.. 

Dear ALLAH SWT pls have mercy on my papa Hj Zahari B. musa

13th Jan 2021 - New PinkForm

After quite sometime I was fretting and sweating and hoping and endlessly praying, the PinkForm that I was waiting for finally arrived. It was sent to me thru WhatsApp due to official email broke down. 

Alhamdulillah, Pn. Hasni / CKUB really was walk the talk. It was a bit shocking to me becoz at first she was saying that she will put me in JKR Kelantan but the real thing was 'JKR KESEDAR' was written on the pf. I couldn't be happier. 

Patutlah the days before, few of friend from JKR KESEDAR was congratulate and welcoming me. Apepon I am happy. 

I told papa that I had turned down my promotion bcoz of the location and sebagai galang ganti I got transferred back to Kelantan. I was surprised that papa did not scolded me for that, instead he was saying Alhamdulillah.. 😊😊😊😊

1st Jan 2021

Papa was admitted but only for a day. Alhamdulillah, his blood test was quite good and the doctor discharged him later that evening. 

Thank You ALLAH SWT for YOUR mercy 

promotion 4th Jan 2020

Seperti yang dijangka, I did not get the post I want. It was given to someone else. And my heart broke.

I got promoted to J48 and the post given was in JPS KL. I told them that I can't leave my father yet as his condition worsen day by day. But they did not consider. I was crying the other day that I don't want to make a bad decision. I have to be responsible and considerate towards my family. I was beyond frustration for their decision. But life must go on. I choose to stay and be with my family especially when my papa needs me. I believe that it is not the end of the world and chances and opportunity always there for me, it is only in the matter of time. I will have it sooner or later. 

My only hope now is that they will transfer me back to Kelantan. They said if I deny the promotion I can't stay in Terengganu bcoz they have already set a name to replace me. And to make it worse I can't even compete with that person, she is related to Pengarah JKR Terengganu. So, I can't do anything accept to pray harder so that they transferred me back to Kelantan