oct 23rd 2010

we was home alone n didn't know wat 2 do..
so we decided to go somewhere... 1st we thot
we shud go to the pyramid but then i was
thinking about watching a muvee becoz we
haven't seen much lately... kinda left behind
a bit.

my hubby said he just had enuff wif bukit tinggi.
so, i decided that we shud go to the cinelesure
@ mutiara damansara. the last time when we
went there, not so much of a crowd. so, we
had fun n some privacy too.

we go there n suprisingly, it is now called
e @ curve.wah... we r soo old.. hehehe...
still not crowded, i like!
watch 'life as we know it' starred by kat heigl
n fergie's hubby, josh duhamel. it was a great
muvee n it's about parenting..n love n sacrifice
n trust n so on.... it's a romantic comedy actually
but at some part i was in tears... so sad when
holly was getting a news about Allyson n Pete
death... i'm not a muvee critic but it's not bad.
recommended. go n check it out at ur nearest
cinema...

then, for lunch we had shrimp n calamari n
some yogurt drink at bubbagum. i must say
that i dunt really fancy the food. we ate them
all though. not recommended. i used to think
it's a great place to dine in but it's not..at least
for me. maybe i ordered the wrong choices of
food. i dunno but we're not going to go there
4 the 2nd time. glad that we managed to finish
our food n drink for lunch.... Alhamdulillah, rezeki.

then, we headed home in a very heavy rain.
safely arrived... Alhamdulillah....

I'm soo geram, sakit hati, mad n sad...

why d'ya hav to act dat way? he is not nobody,
he is somebody to you. yeah.. i know he is not your
favorite but still, u can not treat him dat way. he is
so young n fragile, he needs attention not ur stupid
way of p******ng. he seek for alternative attention,
u got jealous n u treat him badly. Why?

If u think u r good enuff, pls... stop faking it.
it's doesn't take a genius to know r to learn
how bad u r. u r a the master of all biased in
the whole wide world. treat them equally. why
must u make comparison. it's not fair when
the comparison was actually never happens.
u made it up coz u love her sooo much becouse
she resemble u love one, exactly look alike from
top to toe, from walk to talk, from voice to everything.
u don't do dat. it's wrong n shud never be practice.

u shud've never called him bengong, bangang, stupid,
cacat or any other bad words. he was never the way
u called him but she is n always will. he is a good boy n
does not deserve to be treated badly.

u don't want him? u hate him? u think he bring shame to u?
u want to push him away?, u rejecting him?
I WANT HIM! give him to me. i'll take a real good
care of him, better than u do, best!
u think u got money u own the world? money is nothing..
u can't bring ur money to ur Lubang Kubur!...

wat make me sick the most... u think u r soo perfect.
but the real is... u r not! u r not even close n u'll never
be. u proud of urself, why? i dont c anything that u can
be proud of. u r nothing. u always underestimate others
n make compares to u r wat u have. it's stupid!. u dont
downgrade other people especially him. he deserve the best
n the best only from me, not u. u want to be the best.. don't
skip ur prayer to ALLAH. u don't know how to recite Quran
n barely do dat. i never heard u did that n when u recite
a doa... it's all over the place, u pronounce it poorly.
u.. dont even want to furnish ur skill to read Quran...
that sad!...

I hate u for wat u did to my s******s, i'm mad at u for everything u
did to him. n i'm sad that i couldn't do anything to stop u from
hurting him. i wish i never know u.. but the history has been carved
n i can't turn back time to change... it's written n we all hav to deal
with it.

I hope ALLAH will help him in being a better person, perfect boy, man
but as for u... for wat u've done... burn in hell.

YA ALLAH.... KAU jauhilah aku dengan perangai semacam ini. aku
mahu jadi yang terbaik utk semua orang. aku tidak mahu meninggi diri
atau merendah-rendahkan orang atau menunjuk-nunjuk.

scan et 3months

et 20/40

saya telah dengan officially at my 20weeks. so, half way there. next 20 weeks
my beautiful baby will be deliver by me. InsyaALLAH with HIS willing n blessings
both of us akn sihat, sempurna n best shape ever!..

wat had happend to me? ohw last week went to a regular check up n misi dh marh
saya coz of my weight.. it's gaining and i hav got an excessive weight about 1.8kg.
so need to come to the clinic this 27th for another check up. my sis said if my weight
does not stop gaining, i might kena minum air gula. people said, air gula tak sedap.
worst case, u'll vomit, n mabuk back.. saya x nak mengalami another mabuk
experience lagi dh. kalau mabuk utk 2nd child, tak pe... hehehehe..

air liur saya masih x mo brenti. still cannot swallow. so, most of the time mmg saya
mengunyah, drinking more water n worst i took some candy. it's definitely not a good
habit to consume candies becoz sy mungkin akan kena kencing manis.. n saya x nak.
walopon i hav no history of diabetic family background tp itu cukup mengerikan saya.

last weekend buy more clothes, sy dh gile shopping for maternity clothes. hahaha...
konon wanna b a hot preggy mommy.. tp bile pakai, rase cam udoh la plak. huhu..
tgk others pakai cam comel je.... so jeles..

my perut getting bigger n so is my body. i want to eat right. but how? i think my
weight doesnt want to come down bcoz saya sembelit.. huhuhu... sy dh ade ubat,
tp saya takut to take it. my last experiment lead me to a result where i was badly
MABUK, lost my appetite, no energy sampai x boleh jalan. i look bad n sy terpaksa
tinggal pose dat day. masih trauma tp dat was at my three months di saat saya masih
fragile. my sister marah sbb sy x sepatutnya consume the medicine di saat awal
mengandung, that's the price i hav to pay for x dengar cakap. tp... at this age of
pregnancy, saya mahu cuba lagi. Mn tau, jika saya dh x sembelit n my pooping
process berjalan lancar, i might lost my excess weight n dunt hav to drink air gula
lagi dah... mintak2.. aminnnn... saya harap dis time a round my niat yg suci murni
ini akan berjaya, succeed!... InsyaALLAH.
Nntikan resultnye esok... can't wait for tomorrow..

Me n the PTK

Was at the PTK Taklimat yesterday. at 1st quite hesitate to attend the taklimat

but, after some thoughts and dicussion  wif yana.. we decided to go anyway.
why we hesitate? sebab last friday PM announce in Budget 2011 (RMK-10)
that PTK dimansuhkan. No more PTK for government servants. Sib baik kami
pegi jugk.... coz the taklimat was not cancelled pon. always trust ur 1st instinct..

What is PTK? it's a valuation on a staff to test their working knowledge..
how competent they are.. if we get 4 marks in both papers (fungsional n generics)
we'll get a raise n chances to get promoted. hopefully i'll get 4 for both papers...
tp must work hard laaa... mcmn nk work hard...i'm not that type of person. tp papepon,
when there's a will there's a way... nak seribu daya, x nak seribu dalih... try dulu,
what happen next len cerite....but.. dgr2, mmg sgt sush to get both 4 marks.. 

byk org dpat 3 marks je for both papers which only help on chances to get promoted...
itupon if ada vacant. 

What shud i do? must write an essay on a particular title that I've to choose. need to
do a research a bit. loads of asking n loads of writings, about 10 to 15 pages. most
important the isi n originality. need to prepare it fast coz got to send the essay this
coming 1st nov. hopefully i can finish it on time.

next, must present my SKT (sasaran kerja tahunan) for last year n this year. need to
convince the judges wif my impressive slides n my presentation. i'm no good in presenting
myself in public. i tend to get so very nervous n i'll talk rubbish. hopefully i'll be able to
calm myself and present my SKT at my best. InsyaALLAH..

Last but not least is, group discussion. dunno my group members yet but we've already
been given the tajuk. need to master all the tajuk though eventhough only one tajuk yg
perlu di present. becoz i don't know wat tajuk will my group get. i don't want to present...
i'm not good n i don't want my team suffer bad marks because of me...

the kemuncak PTK will be on the 1st Nov - 3rd Nov. i'm sooo pening bcoz kena buat 2
things at the same time. being appointed as SPK auditor n have to do the audit from
18/10 - 18/11 an need to come out with a report. hopefully my tenaga n masa will kind
enuff so dat i'm gonna b able to handle all these matters ngan JAYANYA... insyaALLAH....

Me n the profession...

Attending a QS International Conference for 2 days.
Today n tomorrow at Grand Dorsett Subang Hotel
It's about quantity surveying, the profession, the Industry,
going green, n others... the best part is I'm going to get 8 CPD
points. So happy... Yeah.. No more worries up to next year!..

met some of my friends n they said that i'm fat.. hahaha... deal with it
guys... then one of the speaker was Prof Rashid or Dr. Rashid, my
lecturer n thesis supervisor. still remember his words about me
failing. N'way thanks to him coz my thesis was awarded with an A!..
I'm so proud of myself. He was also offered me to work with him
as an researcher but i had to turn down his offer because i'm not
a good researcher, i hav no passion at all. sorry doc.
seeing you today, reminds me of my gud old varsity days....

Tahniah, congrats....

it's baby time again.... n this time, Pn Hanawati is the proud mother.
This is her 5th baby but the 4th son. Congrats to the family from both of us.
Name? dunno yet but she deliver the baby at DeMC. tepat jam 7.05 am,
the beautiful baby boy was born with a weight 3.6kg.. wow! he's big..

pict courtesy of Alma (kak hana daughter). rambutmu soo 

thick!!! comeiiill..

et 18/40

in da month of October.... agak bz buln ni.. mcm2... my sis buat open
house, my bro pon buat, ofis buat, jabatan buat. semua org buat.
Penat nak habiskan syawal ni..makan pon byk.. papepun bersyukur
dgn rezeki yg telah diberikan olehNYA....
harap2 my next meeting wif misi, my weight is still in control.

i'm @ 18/40 weeks. perut pon dh agak besar, walobgimnpon sum
people said that i hav a very small tummy at this age of pregnancy.
last weekend dh shopping few baju maternity. suke, sbb chommel...
my lil sis said i look like a barbie doll when i wore the baju.. hehehe..
ye la tu padahal sesaje mau kasi gue prasaang...muahahaha... papepon
nk beli baju lagi. kali ni aim for maxis n cardigan yang pjg smpai ke lutut
cam cik adik ku yg kupanggil Dilah tu ske pakai.

heels dh lama x pakai, even before my pregnancy pon lagik, tp sjk
pregnant ni..feel like wanted to pakai balik la plak... eeeeeee x sdar diri...
kulat2 dah naik byk dh d sandal2 ku, heels ku.... ade aku kisah? hahaha...
kang pas branak nnti aku malaramlaaa... la la la....

perfume? jugak dh lama x sembur.. no need la.. my natural fragrance
pon dh ok..hehehe...nasibla da people around me.. had to bear my body
odour... alhamdulillah..stakat ni no complaint. lagipon mr. hubby honey
bunny ku syg said that i smells guuuudddd... :)) amek ati je tu...

my kebayas, x muat tang perut dh. cannot squeeze in. totally out, must
wait until my bb yang disayangi ini born dulu.. pastu hav to diet yang gilee2..
untill i get my beautiful n gojes bod back.. used to hav a bod like britney's
body in her 'i'm a slave for u' vdo.. skang dh out.. miahahaha.. mr. hubby
kate i'm sexier than ever wif my tummy yg booolat itu.. hahaha.. pandaila...

Mabuk?? nope.. gone..dh boleh makan, minum susu sesikit tp in da
morning during teeth brushing still ade rase loya2 walopon x muntah.
mucus are all over my body especially saliva. x boleh telan. tried to telan
before but cannot coz i vomit after that. kemam la saliva tu... smpai
jumpe2 appropriate tempat utk spit it out. dari usia 12 minggu sampai
skang, i had to deal with all the mucus. hopefully by the time i'm in 21st
week, all d mucus will b gone.. :) InsyaALLAH..positively... yeay...

dear baby... ibu, mak, mama, ma, mommy, ummi love u sooo much..
n so does ur ayah, bapa, papa, abah, abi, daddy.. muahhhh muah.....