22 Sept 2024

Dust are everywhere. Been ages since my last post. Was not in the mood at all to update my life event. 2022-2024, 2 years of living in silo. Why?.. because I've been living in distance and away from my kids.. Almost 3 years, and I am exhausted, fatigue and stressed. I don't know how long more can I keep up with this type of living environment. I don't like it at all. Never liked it. Dear ALLAH SWT please help me. Have mercy to me n my kids..

Today is my 15th years of anniversary. I was excited a bit initially but eventually the excitement just go away as it was only me feeling that way. My husband seems like don't really bother. So, IDGAF anymore. Anyway thanks to him for his seeds. My oldest, Balqis is 13 now. Zara is 11. Amir is 9 n Farah is 6. The only wish or gift for my anniversary is I want to work near my kids at Kelantan. I want to be able to see them every day. I want to be part of the everyday. I want to be a good mother. 

04 Nov 22

Jiwa kacau...

Kenapa susah sgt nk d lupakn peristiwa tu wlopon dh byk thn berlalu... 8 tahun bukan sekejap... 

Terbyg blk... Gmbar2... Msg wsp or any other platform fb, line... Etc . yg pernah terkantoi aku baca. Pertemuan, pertanyaan, perbuatan yg mmg menyakitkan... Trbyg2... Fresh like yesterday just happened. Masalah betolll...

How shud I end this.. how to end?... I have no answer. 

Gila.. I am crazy. Untill today I am still stalking like a looser. Stress gila pk psl ni.. solat pn x khusyuk... 

Aku x nk msk neraka... 

school break Aug - September 2022

Trip from Pasir Puteh - Kota Bharu -  Pantai Melawi, Bachok - Pasir Puteh - Kuala Krai (31st Aug - 3rd September 2022)

Trip to Sabah for work - kunjung bantu K9

Trip from KBR - KK - BELURAN - KOTA MARUDU - KUDAT from 21st August to 26th 

eczema

It was bad and still bad... It made my hand looks like it belong to 90yrs old lady... 😔

Art Homework with the girls

Road to COVID-19 Vaccine

Alhamdulillah after months of waiting, finally got an appointment for vaccination. 1st dose was on the June 29, 2021 and the 2nd dose is today, July 25th, 2021.